The idea of blogging about Jordan is brilliant! And the link to it I displayed on my blog was enough to keep me reminded that I should write something from the heart about my beloved Jordan...
Most of my posts if not all of them are emotional, I let it all out right here, in my little corner...I record my life here for years to come...
It all started once I left Jordan...trying to stay connected to a so close yet so far away country!
So close whenever:
- I sign in to my blog in the morning and start reading my favourite blogs, especially those coming from Jordan...
- I drive on Highway 101 south, with the scenery of the mountains of San Jose reminding me of Jordan's beautiful mountains, especially at night!
- I attend ladies gatherings here where most of them are Jordanians...bringing Jordanian food and speaking Jordanian accent...
- I go to work at the Muslim Community here in Santa Clara! Recognizing the Jordanians either from their looks or their accent while talking to each other!
- I go grocery shopping at Taj Mahal, to get Arabic food, and I find a Jordanian couple arguing whether to buy this or that jameed for mansaf!
- I cook mansaf...and invite Jordanian people to share it with us!
- I go to the mall, and see the Dead Sea products being sold to customers...The best part is when they ask me while walking if I wanna try their products from Israel, and I simply say: "I use Rivage from Jordan" :ppp
- I make falafel and hummus for breakfast, or have some of it at a Jordanian restaurant.
- I greet or talk to someone who had just come back from a visit to Jordan.
- We join our friends here on a trip either to the park or to the beach, having one of them singing Jordanian songs all along the way!
- I feel tears dancing in my eyes hesitant to fall, simply because there's no specific reason for them to fall...and then hubby holds me tight telling me that it's OK to cry...for he's my husband, my mom, my dad, my sisters, my brother and my Jordan! And for he'll always have his shoulder for me to cry on...
Yet, So Far Away...Whenever:
- I am talking to mama over the phone longing for her hugs and soft hand playing with my hair!
- I hear that baba misses my jokes and laughs...
- I realise that my brother is improving himself and his way of living...while I'm too far to witness all that!
- I have an appointment with the doctor to hear Baby X's heart beats, wishing I have all my loved ones around me to hear them with me...
- I think about how I am going to deliver the baby away from Jordan...and dreaming of the day she will go there and inhale some of it's air...
- I miss a family gathering, wedding, engagement party...or even a small Birthday party...
- I hear Fairouz singing...khidni 3ala bladi...
- The stuffed zucchini, malfoof and stuffed vine leaves I make come out of the cooking pot looking bad bad baaaaad!
- I hear that one of my sisters is celebrating an achievement or getting over a mishap, while I'm too far to give her a hug and tell her "What's coming next is a lot better"!
- I'm so happy or so sad, and in deep need to call my family, but the time difference is an obstacle!
- I hear the news from Jordan about an accident, a rise in the products prices or about the snow blocking the traffic...While I'm too far to live all these incidents with Jordan's people...
Writing these words made me cry at some points...but it's worth it!
I'm so happy now...after sharing my feelings about my beloved land! My beloved Jordan :D
Blogging about Jordan Day is an amazing idea...hopefully it'll always connect us; Jordanians living all around the world!
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
(BAJO) ...Jordan, so close & yet so far away!
Posted by nido at 9:44 PM
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You're just like me...
This blog, helped bring a piece a Jordan to me, and deliver a piece of my heart, to my beloved Jordan
It's hard for me to hold my tears most of the time, when I hear the word Jordan. My heart flutters, and I feel that I'm so out of place!
Allah yil3an abulghorbeh!
I tell you, im getting too much ghorbeh dosage tonight... im about to collapse into my bed and cry myself to sleep :(
bittersweet, I swear. This was A A A mazaing!
"I feel tears dancing in my eyes hesitant to fall, simply because there's no specific reason for them to fall...and then hubby holds me tight telling me that it's OK to cry...for he's my husband, my mom, my dad, my sisters, my brother and my Jordan! And for he'll always have his shoulder for me to cry on..."...
nido, you made me cry.. i just can't hold my tears back halla2 :'(
i feel your pain of separation from the place and the people you love...I know for sure that you will be ok and you are doing just fine making a very warm loving home and a very beautiful family in your second country, America!!
Blogging is like therapy, but much cheaper!! ;)
ya allah!! ya3ni i'm really getting emotional ya jama3a!! :(
7abeebti Nido!!
ya Allaaaah, that was too emotional
:( :(
Ya3ni when I read your comment about my post being emotional but smart I thought I'd find a scientific feasibility study here!
This is so beautiful! and the most beautiful thoughts are the ones that come from the heart!
Qwaider: Blogging about Jordan helped me feel much better! I love talking about Jordan and letting my feelings of home sickness out!
Batoul: habibti Batoul...May we all move back to our home towns! Where a much better place would be waiting for us:)
Secratea: I'm sorry it made you cry...I just had to say it! :)
You're visitng home soon...cheer up ;)
Summer: It's a magical therapy! hehe...:)
I got too emotional blogging about it...but I don't know...it made me feel better! :)
Maioush: I should have added...Talking to Maioush over the phone makes me feel closer to Jordan as well :)
Diana: I'll take this as a compliment! Hormones hormones hormones :ppp
Ammar: Yesterday, before posting this, I was wondering abt the kind of post I would be writing if I was still living in Jordan?! To be honest...I don't know ...
I tried to keep myself away from tears and emotions...but it was impossible!
Yours was more balanced...that's what I meant by my comment ;)
Thank you Ammar:)
that was very touching.. and the time difference is a BIG obstacle.. sometimes I feel i don't have anything to say when I call them, just because I would be having so many things to say earlier .. but couldn't!
nido ya nido..jordan lives inside us wherever we go..
i hope you have a safe deilvery and i hope that your baby grows up holding a place of jordan in her sweet heart..i am sure she will coz with a mother like you babies will always have an identity and a home.
god bless you nido and your sweet family
Wow, that's a beautiful post and rememberance.
aw that is sweet...at lease u feel close to jordan at times so it is good:) will your family by coming to the us when u deliver your baby?? ya3ni your mom or sister i mean:)
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