Mother Size Heart...

Before she was born, I thought my heart is big enough...full of love to those beautiful people in my life!

But now, I can feel my heart stretching one day after another...becoming bigger and bigger to make her love fit in!

My love for her is growing, With time :)

I am a more understanding mother these days...Now I know what she needs and I hurry to provide her with love and care.

Reading "The Happiest baby on the block" is making me more relaxed and is keeping me away from anxiety! I trust my instinct more and my patience is at it's peak!

As for my previous experience with babies, It never existed! The last time I held a newborn, I was 14 years old! That was 12 years ago, when my brother was born! I remember helping my mom holding him and calming him down...but he was not a sensitive baby like our Little Mariyah...

Mariyah is a very alert baby...she is so sensitive to noises, to lights, to smells and movements...She finds it so hard to calm herself down by herself...

If she is not home she stays awake no matter how sleepy and tired she is! Her eyes stay open and her hands keep moving! She needs attention all the time...I have to keep her close, either by feeding her or holding her...

While at home...it's totally different...It's so quite, and she enjoys her swing, her bouncer and her baby gym! They can keep her awake and calm for a whole hour...but when it's time to sleep, SHE HAS TO BE WRAPPED, and she sleeps only while I'm feeding her or with Jeeej on the rocking chair!

The book made me understand that Mariyah is living the missing 4th trimester...which means that we should provide an atmosphere similar to the womb she stayed in for the 1st 3 trimesters!

The babies world keeps impressing me...at the beginning I felt so bad for not being experienced with babies like many other girls, but now I only feel blessed being able to understand this world with my own baby...She is teaching me so many things and I just keep enjoying her while she is awake...

We are going out daily these days! Gatherings and picnics...walking in the park or visiting Jeeej at work!

I try to get her tired during the day before she gets me tired at night! Sleeping for 6 and 7 hours at night is helping me a lot during the day...to love her and enjoy her as much as I want :D

7akifadi, Thanks a lot for suggesting this book! il hamdolillah, It's changing my life into a better one, AMAZINGLY!

Ekosaan or Karate Kid?!

She has a new look now!! She mostly wears pink these days...so people could tell she's a girl :D

We got her this orange m&m suit from Las Vegas, last year! We didn't know what we were going to have...so we chose ORANGE :D and it looks super on her :$

So, not only did she get a hair cut, or her hair shaved...but also her mama -MEEE- has a new look now :p
I lost the 33 lb (15 Kg) I have gained during pregnancy! I am back to my weight when I first got pregnant!!

Ok...I was 176lb (80 Kg) on the 29th of May...and now I am 143 lb (65 Kg) :$

My doctor and the nurses were shocked! But my counselor believes it's due to the depression phase I have been through! Should I be happy I had depression!?

OH YEA! lol

Go Home!!

Last night my cousin -A mother of 4- called me from Chicago, we were talking about how frustrating it is when you have a crying baby, and she was recommending some solutions...

Then she told me that last year, she took one of her kids to buy him a pair of shoes, when her one year old baby suddenly started crying as if there is no one around listening! My cousin said that at that moment she wished Earth would swallow her! But she just had to get her son the shoes...

One lady there, went to her inside the store, and said loudly: Take your kids and GO HOME!!

My cousin was shocked and nervous at the same time...so she asked: excuse me?! The lady repeated: GO HOME!

My cousin got soooo mad and said: You B****!!! If you have no kids...then too bad! Why don't YOU go home?!

To be honest, if my cousin told me this a year ago, I would have thought: Yea! Why does she take her kids out if she knows they don't behave?!

But yesterday when she told me the story, I got soooo mad at that lady!! I know how hard it is to make a baby calm down...

I went to meet my friend few days ago at the mall, Mariyah was full, clean and quiet...I had few minutes for myself before she started crying so loud! I got so confused! I kept walking her and then lifted her up...held her close to me, and still she was crying... People were staring at me as if I have committed a crime or something :s Some were too nice giving me smiles and coming close by to have a look at her...but most of the people there killed me with their looks I decided to go to one of the fitting rooms to feed her...again she was not hungry! So I simply decided to go back home...and have her cry away from IGNORANT people!

Next time...if she cries..I WON'T leave! I will stay because it is my right to go out and see people..and not to isolate myself from the whole world! Even if I got the worst looks ever!!

I just CAN NOT wait for the book to arrive! "Happiest baby on the block" recommended by 7aki fadi, I read a lot about it already and seems that it's going to be a good help for me to learn how to calm my baby down :)

SHE is wearing MY dress!!

One of the best surprises ever...is knowing that my mom has kept one of my dresses when I was a baby, so she can give it to me once I have a baby girl of my own :D

She sent it to me with my friend Amal...

Mariyah in her mama's dress!!

Thank you tete Bassoumeh :D We can't wait to see you!!

"How Stylish" lol

WE have the power...

Yesterday was one of the most tiring days of my life...I was about to collapse! I swear...I could barely do anything around the house...

What made it harder was Jeeej's phone call telling me he will be a couple of hours late at work, which meant continuous suffering for me...

Mariyah woke up really early yesterday having some gas in her stomach, and then took a nap for less than 2 hours! Then she stayed awake from 12 pm until 10:30 pm!! This is not common for babies her age!

Nothing was calming her down except for eating! I mean nothing! I made sure I clean her every now and then, I sang for her, I played with her, I walked her, I fed her and fed her and if anybody saw her eating would have thought she was starving, but she was not...actually she kept spitting every once in a while which means she was full!

When Jeeej came, he calmed her down by rocking her on the chair, and she slept after crying her heart out! Then she woke up after 30 min., crying! I was starting to lose it...She broke my heart, I started crying! Nothing was working!

Then, sometime around 10 pm, Jeeej decided that we have the power over her, she can't beat us! lol...

He wrapped her tightly -she HATES it, so we never do it!- and walked her, then on the rocking chair...she was crying SO LOUD all the time...and then she slept...at 10:30 pm!!!

He made me sleep at the same time...and the best part was waking up after almost 8 hours of continuous sleeping!

I haven't had this luxury -8 hours of sleep- since last February!!
From now on, WRAPPING IS THE BEST AND WE HAVE THE POWER!

For the record...I was brave enough today to cut her nails! For the 1st time :p
Jeeej did it the 1st time, just like changing her and cleaning her and bathing her and everything else:p

I Treasure...

The moment I hold my baby against my chest, Where she folds her arms and rests her chin on them and then looks up to my face...



When our eyes lock, I can't help but smile and take a deep breath...Is this for real?!



Then I start praying...



May Allah SWT fill your life with love, joy and happiness...



I love you Mariyah !

Surprising Baba...

Last week, Me and Mariyah surprised Baba Jeeej at work! She was wearing something cute, and Jeeej got excited about her visit,,,he started showing her off to his friends and managers :D

She was behaving, so Jeeej suggested we go out for lunch together since it was his break hour...

He was being so nice, putting her on his lap while eating so that I can enjoy my meal...and then she surprised him again by pooping on his dress pants :D

I don't know...Was it my fault being unable to put a diaper correctly around her butt...or was it her being so excited and in the mood of surprising her baba again and again.....

Girl in BLUE :)

The QwaiderS on MAZAJ FM!!!!!!!!!

Did you hear it on Mazaj FM?!?! just a while ago!! Now is this for real!? I just heard the interview with Mr. Qwaider and his Mrs!! They have just announced their wedding date and details!!! loooooooool...

But why on mazaj?! Why not on their blogs!?!? Pleeeeeeeeeeez Qwaider, can I tell who the bride is?!

I'm so excited for you guys!!